GIFT

I sit here on Monday with so much to do but wanting to do nothing. My older kids have the day off and are having a stressfest over my surgery tomorrow. I have decided to work in my office in order to get all my paperwork done before I am out of commission for a week or so. I am hoping to get some quality time in with Heidi and Nestor before the surgery tomorrow so that they feel a bit more relaxed.
As I sit here today and take up some me time to write this I realize that although the surgery is an easy one, it is still major abdominal surgery and the removal of an organ... HELLO?! I realize that easier surgeries than this have put people in a bad situations and well, killed them. I realized today that NO day is promised and every day is a GIFT. That I need to try my best to be at my best everyday because it may be my last. I don't want to sound morbid or gloomy but hey, I suppose if I look at life like this EVERYDAY- I might just loosen up and live a little.
Maybe I'll decide to start my days eating healthy to set a good example for the kids and to allow my body to take me a distance longer than anticipated? Maybe I will dance in the rain with the kids instead of letting them do it alone every time? Maybe I will serve pancakes, oatmeal, eggs and warm for your tummy breakfasts to the kids as often as possible because cereal is so well, cereal.
I dunno, maybe I wouldn't change at all. But, I happen to think I would because I want my kids to remember me better than I remember myself. I want them to think of me and think of warmth and strength. I want them to think of fun and laughter. Well, I suppose I just want them to think about me.
Alright, enough. I need to get down to business and spend time with the kiddos. I swear, people think Toby and me are crazy but I would not change my life for anything. I wouldn't change that Toby is blind now and I wouldn't change that we took in so many kids. I wouldn't change how hard we work and how fast we play. I would not change a thing-I love my kids, I love my husband, I love my family, I love my life.